God of mine

I never knew you as a jealous person
I knew that you love me even if I betray you
And I knew you’ve never stopped thinking about me
You’re such a caring man
To be with you, gives me the perfect warmth in a winter night.
I know one thing about you
That I heard when I was little
You’re the man of your word!
Yes you are!
And the love you show is unconditional.
I’m such a loser yearning for worldly love and care
When I have someone who invented love being fond of me
Yes, I’m pathetic as I’m going after someone who know me a little
When I have someone who knew me even before I was born.
He knows the littlest things that gives me happiness.
And loves when I just utter 2 words in reply.
I hate myself for not being there when he needed me the most.
He just wants my time and a little love.
Not like the humans who rob my time and energy for their welfare.
I’m sorry my love!
I will be good to you….
Coz I really don’t find any refuge in this poor world.
You’re my everything.
I love you, Jesuspaaa!

#JesusChrist #Jesusmylove #Jesusmyfather #Jesusmysavior #Jesusiloveyou #God’slove

My first bus travel

I don’t know where to begin
Ok let’s start with the scorching weather on that day
Luckily seats were available
Its totally different from normal seats in the bus
One and a half seats were made for two passengers on both rows of the bus
90s romantic melodies accompanied our travel from college to the book fair
It’s fine
I felt fine
Reached the book rush(fair)
We had rose milk;
The Sun had us;
Time was scared of the crowd in the fair
It moved slowly with us
We reached the bus stand
Now the real problem begins
All the buses were crowded
We rushed to stand drenching
With sweat running from head to toe
Gravity hesitated to enter the bus.
Nauseating smell carried by the hot breeze
As we grabbed the handles on the roof of the bus.
Whenever the bus driver applies break,
Vadivelu’s jump scattering the front windows shadows my mind.
Shall I laugh now?
I’m not in that position right now
Finally we got off the bus
New found respect for the daily bus travelers!
I’m fed up!
But I’m extremely grateful!
Thank you God for making me experience this once in my life.

Absolutely!

Dreams Vs Reality

Traveling in an Auto Rickshaw,
Waves of thoughts chaperoned the vibrations.
Eyed a guy quivering on the corner
One hand sweats ocean and the other contacts a friend
Beside him lying down an epileptic,
Tilted Bike’s empathy 5 feet ahead.
This scene dug a whole
Said a prayer;
Cried a river;
Wished of becoming a doctor.
Dream begets Passion
Exams failed my dream
Family failed my love
Gave me another career
Felt like being in an arranged marriage abandoning my lover.
Years passed
Lesson learnt:
I don’t have to be a doctor to help someone in trouble.
Now spreading kindness through every means!
Pursuing masters with a fruitful heart.

Be kind!

Know the consequences

Hurting is easy
It’s easier than peeling a banana
But what about the other side?
The one who gets hurt
Suffers the unnecessary pain in heart
Does they deserve the hurt?
Anger is the most dangerous weapon in this whole world
It’s like a nuclear bomb for a weak heart
Your good deeds, cool character or even your humbleness..
Never save you from the wrath of the  victim who prays to God
It destroys you!

My dear Grandma ❣

She made me the best biryani I ever had
She sings like she’s giving her heart to the Lord
She never forgets about the tiny little things we say
And enquiries that the next time
She never failed to amuse me with her patience
Faith can’t escape from her
She believed in God no matter what!
She loves to eat mom’s garlic dal rice and loves my coffee
She praises my cooking
She’s most famous for her extraordinary skills in cooking
We call her Rusi patimma!
She never holds grudges
She treats everyone with utmost care
She’s the best storyteller!
I used to complain her about mom when I was little
She has my back whenever whatever
She’s so warm in her words
I learned the real meaning of hospitality from her
She’s super excited to see me wearing saree
Her laugh is still lingering in my ears
Tears rolling down
Never said goodbye
Coz she knows we can’t.
I love you Patimma
We miss you terribly to the core!

Curly hair very Fair

I hated my curls
Wished for long straight hair
Flowing like falls without knots
Even jealous of straight haired ones
Flaunting theirs with millions of different styles
Tried to change mine
In vain
Got more curls
Years passed
Seasons changed
Loving mine now
Embracing my curls that I’m proud af
Never tried CG
Coz it’s there in my blood
If you’re hating still
Try it in a bun
Heaven made Crown
Feels like a Queen

Bloodlust

I feel like a vampire all of a sudden
I don’t know whether it’s my freaking hunger or heightened emotion
Yeah! I can literally tell that each and every emotion is heightened!
And the pain too!
It’s hard for being a vampire even it’s few days per month!

Pathetic

It’s PATHETIC
When I pacify myself saying I’m there for me
It’s PATHETIC
When Netflix and Amazon prime fills up the space of loneliness at it’s peak
It’s PATHETIC
When you pretend to watch videos while crying just to look cool
It’s PATHETIC
When I enjoy living in my dreams being like a free bird
It’s more PATHETIC
When you realize that the child in you can’t accept the fact that no one’s gonna be there always.

Should I expect 2021 to be good to me?

I don’t wanna have too much of expectations for 2021
I think it’s time to transform our expectations to gratefulness
It’s like a tradition to have expectations and excitements for the new year
I admit it coz I do it every year
Apart from the unexpressed resolutions, we tend to expect something
We expect like this new year’s kinda genie or something.. to flourish something more exciting upon us
I don’t wanna demotivate telling not to expect
But I’m grateful for what I have and who I am
I’m very much grateful coz I’ve my dear ones safe and healthy
Amidst this drastic situation, we’re surviving by his grace!
I’m bowing down grateful for that!
It’s not that I’ve expected a lot in the beginning of 2020 and got nothing
This 2020 made more alterations and that’s all are good transformations for me
I was against some beliefs or changes
But now I’m supporting those!
I’m gonna change my mind not to expect and be thankful for HIS grace upon me and my near and dear ones.
So take a diary and a pen
Let’s do some self realization
I bet you’ll definitely be thankful for so many things
Apart from that gratefulness , I regret some kinda behavior too.
So it’s good if you take time to write about how this year went for you.
My hearty wishes for the upcoming year!
Accept new beginnings and challenges !
Be happy for what you have !
And I wish you all a very healthy, prosperous and joyful new year ahead!

Rain’s torment

It’s midnight and raining
Couldn’t sleep hearing the rain’s music
The song sounded in my head like
“Hey! I’m here to remind you of the past not to sing a lullaby “
The intensity lowered for me to gather all my memories
Lightning strikes
Play the next song please
And it goes like
“Come on ! Let’s give you some nice dose of fear and anxiety of future”
This rain is both a torture and a tranquilizer
The cool breeze embraced my hair
Pacifying me to care for my dark circles
Finally after a deep sigh , I closed the window
As the alerting bites of mosquitoes made me do so!
I wish I had someone to lean on ..
But thinking of having someone makes me to shut up and sleep!
I’m gonna curl under my sheets,
Hug my pillow and have a good sound sleep!

#rainyday #rainlove #rain #rainy #instapoetry #instawriters #single #loneliness #solitude #emotions #rainyseason #differentvibes #midnight